My Dad Was Asking What I Don't Like About Being In Anchorage, One Of The Things I Said Was The Way We Live. I Don't Like That I'm The Only One Who Cleans, That My Dad Is Always Gone, That I'm The Only One Who Is Ever Home, Or That We Never Have Home Cooked Meals. Right After That We Made Dinner Together And He Made Jessica Clean The Kitchen. He Is Starting To Realize That I'm Serious About Going Home And He Is Trying Hard To Fix Things Around Here. He Is Taking A lot Of My Thoughts Under Consideration And It Feels Good To Be Heard For Once.
I Feel Like Being The Baby In The Family My Voice Is Never Heard Everything That Was Ever Said By Me Has Just Flew Past Everybody. I'm Trying Hard To Be Heard Now And Its Finally Starting To Work.
Back To My Dad Though. I Can Tell He Is Really Scared To Lose Me. He Has Even Told Me He Has Never Been Away From Me And He Cant Stand The Thought Of Me Going He Doesn't Know What He Is Gunna Do With Out Me. It Makes Me Feel For Him But What Am I Suppose To Do I Cant Stay Here Because Of His Needs. I Have Two Family Members Here One Is Always With Here Boyfriend And One Is Working All The Time. I Have Nobody To Talk To Or Any Friends And that Is What Is Important To Me Right Now. For The Last Year I Have Been Living This Life Almost As If I Were Surviving On My Own. I Cant Talk To People About My Issues Because I Have Nobody To Talk To, I've Noticed That I Have Become A Stronger Person By This But I Have Alot Of Pain Also. A Teenager Girl Needs To Have A Life Not Be Inside Watching TV Everyday And I Think Arkansas Will Help Me With That. I Have A Lot Of Good Friends And Family There. My Dad Is Very Needy And I Don't Know How He Is Going To Manage Once Jess Leaves When She Graduates But I'm Sure He Will. Everything That Is Happening Right Now Is For Me And It May Seem Greedy Or Selfish Or Rude But Its Time That I Quit Sucking It Up And Be Happy.
On A Happier Note My Birthday Is In 8 More Days :D I Wont Be Getting My Licence On My Birthday Or For A Couple Weeks After Due To My Dad Being Outta Town But At Least I Will Be Getting It Finally..
I Have A Short 4 Day Week Of School This Week That I Am Very Excited About Then Going Ocean Fishing With My Dad. Maybe Then I Will Finally Put Some Pictures Up On Here.
Bye For Now..
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You know I love you and I'd love to have you here with me, but you need to make up your mind and make sure your dad knows your decision. We need to finalize this quick if youre coming home at Christmas. If you want to wait until the summer, that is up to you. I just want you to be happy.
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