Green Light

I Really Like Working At Kid To Kid, Its A Pretty Easy Job. I Will Probably Be Over Whelmed When Ever I Get A Real Job. This Job Is Real Chill. I Got My First Pay Check...Its Gone... But It Went Towards Something I Have Been Wanting For Over A Year Now This Cute Northface Jacket, I Also Bought Jeans, A Shirt, And Lights. Yep Lights. They Are All Around The Ceiling Of My Room And Of Course Green. They Are On Right Now Its Pretty Neat.
Dad And I.. Ok Just Dad But I Watched.. Put Up Some Christmas Lights. Everyone Puts Them Up Early In The AK Since Its Always Dark Now-a-days. Love The Season. Im Starting To Get Really Excited Snow Will Be Here This Week It Was 17 When I Got In The Car On Saturday During The Day It Gets About 25 Im Thinking Its Freezing! But In Another Month It Will Be -25, Not Looking Forward To That Ah!
Right Now We Are Watching Camerons Dog For A Couple Of Weeks, Charlie Is Loving That, He Has Someone To Play With. He is Not Be An Annoying Dog Anymore But A Sweet Cute Dog. I Love Having Jack Around.
Okay Thats It For Now. Buh Bye

Its Life.

So I Got A Job At A Kid's Resale Store. Its Pretty Neat Though, I Like It So Far. Its Been Keeping Me Busy Though. Naps Are No Longer Part Of My Daily Routine. It Seams Like I'm Constantly Doing Something Between The School, Work, And Homework. But This is Life And I Enjoy The Business Weirdly. I Cant Wait To Get My First Paycheck Ive Been Counting Down The Days Since Before I Even Started. I've Been Wanting this Really Expensive Jacket For A Long Time Now And That's Going To Be The First Thing I Buy! But I'm Not Going To Just Blow Every Check I Get I Actually Want To Save Some And Be Responsible. Ive Been Waiting To Be Independent For A Long Time Now And I'm Getting So Close Now That I Can Drive And Have A Job.
Ive Been Keeping Up With My School Work Pretty Well This Year. Its Already Second Quarter, This Year Is Going By So Fast. I Have Friends This Year! Not A Lot But Definitely An Improvement, So I Guess When I'm Not Shy It Helps. Glad I Grew Out Of That Face. I Used To Be So Scared To do Speeches In Front Of The Class I Would Get Really Red, Shake, And Sweat. My Mom Always Told Me I Would Grow Out Of It. I Never Imagined Growing Out Of It, And So Quickly. Everything Has Been A Plus Since Then. I'm No Longer The Quiet Girl Ha!!
I Know I Haven't Written In Awhile And This Isn't Very Long But I Got To Go To Bed, Work Tomorrow!

I Currently Have The Worst Cold I Ever Had Right Now And It Sucks! I Cant Even Talk And Coughing Hurts. I've Been Going To School Though Afraid To Miss To Much Work. I've Been Taking So Many Vitamins And Doing Every Thing I Can To Make Sure This Cold Doesn't Turn Into Anything More! On The Plus Side I Have Lost Alot Of Weight In This Process Since Ive Been Eating Alot Healthier And It Feels Good.
Now That I Can Drive Everything Has Been So Much Better I Love Be Able To Drive! Ive Been Looking For Jobs And Haven't Really Had Much Luck. I Drive To School And Lunch Everyday. I Would Drive Forever If I Didn't Have To Help Pay For Gas. My Truck Eats Up Gas Like No Other It Cost So Much To Fill It Up It Seams To Always Be On E.
It For Now. Short And Simple

Short And Simple Update

I Conquered My Birthday Without Any Tears. Most Of My Birthday Have Been Full Of Bad Luck. The Bad Luck This Time Was Not Having Any Body Here I Was Away From My Mom For The First Time And My Dad Was Out Of Town. But I Managed I Went Out To Eat With Jessica And Her Boyfriend It Was Very Good Then Hung Out With Some Friends. When I Turned 15 I Felt Alot Older And More Mature. But Now That Im Sixteen I Feel Just About The Same. Maybe Thats Because I Cant Drive Yet. I Will Be Taking My Road Test Tomorrow Thought I Very Excited To Finally Take It. I Really Want To Get A Job And that Will Be The First Thing I Do When I Can Drive.

This Dog!!!!!!

They Say A Dog Is A Mans Best Friend And I Do Believe So. They Cant Hurt You They Will Always Be There For You.

Charlie Is A Very Special Dog (Literally) He Seems To Be Challenge In Some Way Because He Doesn't Care When I'm Mad At Him Scream Or Yell At Him He Will Sit There And Wag His Tail Then Jump On You And Give You A Big Kiss.

He Has Made Me Laugh With His Stupidity. He Will Never Know Right From Wrong. It Is Very Stressful But He Is A Delightful Dog. He Has More Energy Then Ive Ever Know Anything To Have.

Anyways The Point To This Post If I Move In With My Mom And Can Not Come With Me. He Also Can Not Stay With My Dad. He Will Be Gone. I Don't Know What I Would Do Without Him He May Be The Cause To Of My Stay. I Cant Imagine Being Without Him Nor Do I Want To.

The Other Night I Let Him Sleep In My Bed For The First Time He Stayed In My Bed The Whole Night But Was Worse Than A Person He Had To Be On Me At All Times. I Hardly Got Any Sleep That Night But That's Okay. :)

Its For Me

My Dad Was Asking What I Don't Like About Being In Anchorage, One Of The Things I Said Was The Way We Live. I Don't Like That I'm The Only One Who Cleans, That My Dad Is Always Gone, That I'm The Only One Who Is Ever Home, Or That We Never Have Home Cooked Meals. Right After That We Made Dinner Together And He Made Jessica Clean The Kitchen. He Is Starting To Realize That I'm Serious About Going Home And He Is Trying Hard To Fix Things Around Here. He Is Taking A lot Of My Thoughts Under Consideration And It Feels Good To Be Heard For Once.
I Feel Like Being The Baby In The Family My Voice Is Never Heard Everything That Was Ever Said By Me Has Just Flew Past Everybody. I'm Trying Hard To Be Heard Now And Its Finally Starting To Work.
Back To My Dad Though. I Can Tell He Is Really Scared To Lose Me. He Has Even Told Me He Has Never Been Away From Me And He Cant Stand The Thought Of Me Going He Doesn't Know What He Is Gunna Do With Out Me. It Makes Me Feel For Him But What Am I Suppose To Do I Cant Stay Here Because Of His Needs. I Have Two Family Members Here One Is Always With Here Boyfriend And One Is Working All The Time. I Have Nobody To Talk To Or Any Friends And that Is What Is Important To Me Right Now. For The Last Year I Have Been Living This Life Almost As If I Were Surviving On My Own. I Cant Talk To People About My Issues Because I Have Nobody To Talk To, I've Noticed That I Have Become A Stronger Person By This But I Have Alot Of Pain Also. A Teenager Girl Needs To Have A Life Not Be Inside Watching TV Everyday And I Think Arkansas Will Help Me With That. I Have A Lot Of Good Friends And Family There. My Dad Is Very Needy And I Don't Know How He Is Going To Manage Once Jess Leaves When She Graduates But I'm Sure He Will. Everything That Is Happening Right Now Is For Me And It May Seem Greedy Or Selfish Or Rude But Its Time That I Quit Sucking It Up And Be Happy.
On A Happier Note My Birthday Is In 8 More Days :D I Wont Be Getting My Licence On My Birthday Or For A Couple Weeks After Due To My Dad Being Outta Town But At Least I Will Be Getting It Finally..
I Have A Short 4 Day Week Of School This Week That I Am Very Excited About Then Going Ocean Fishing With My Dad. Maybe Then I Will Finally Put Some Pictures Up On Here.
Bye For Now..

Catching Up.!

Ive Had An Exciting Last Couple Of Days.
First Of To Start With School. Even Though There Has Been Alot Of Work Involved Ive Been Keeping Up And Doing Really Well In School. That's A Plus Considering Last Year.. I Took A Test That You Could Only Miss Three Out Of Fifty One Or You Would Have To Retake It Today. It Was In Chem, So I Was Almost Sure I Would Have To Retake It, But I Only Missed One! :D. But Besides That Nothing To Exciting There.
So While My Dad Was Out Of Town Again, He Called Me Up Saying He Had A Proprasition For Me. Since I Want To Move Back Home With My Mom This Winter He Said, That If I Stay We Could Move To Australia.! Ive Always Wanted To Go There, Ive Been Saying Since I Was Little As Soon As I Graduated That I'm Going To Live In Alaska For Two Years And Australia For Two Years And It Seams Really Weird That Now Ive Gotten The Opportunity To Do Both. I'm Very Excited About This But I'm Not Sure What To Do. Do I Go To Austina And Risk Hating It, Or Do I Skip An Once In A Life Time Opportunity And Live With My Mom Where I Know I Will Be Happy? My Dads Not Even Sure On The Facts Yet So I'm Waiting Tell He Gets To Know More Before I Tell Anyone An Answer. I'm Really Scared That I Will Get There And End Up Being Miserable, And Its Not Like This Time That I Can Move Back If I Do. I Will Have To Spend The Next Two Years There. So Its A Big Risk To Take. It Could Or Could Not Be Worth It. Fingers Crossed.
The Fair Started The Other Day. Its The State Fair So It Was Very Crowded. It Was Sort Of Fun Though.
Dane Cook Is Coming To Town In October, My Sister, Her Boyfriend, And I All Got Tickets To Go See Him. That Should Be Fun. I'm Counting Down The Days Tell Then.. Along With Counting Down The Days For My Birthday (Sweet Sixteen)
That's It For Now.