I Currently Have The Worst Cold I Ever Had Right Now And It Sucks! I Cant Even Talk And Coughing Hurts. I've Been Going To School Though Afraid To Miss To Much Work. I've Been Taking So Many Vitamins And Doing Every Thing I Can To Make Sure This Cold Doesn't Turn Into Anything More! On The Plus Side I Have Lost Alot Of Weight In This Process Since Ive Been Eating Alot Healthier And It Feels Good.
Now That I Can Drive Everything Has Been So Much Better I Love Be Able To Drive! Ive Been Looking For Jobs And Haven't Really Had Much Luck. I Drive To School And Lunch Everyday. I Would Drive Forever If I Didn't Have To Help Pay For Gas. My Truck Eats Up Gas Like No Other It Cost So Much To Fill It Up It Seams To Always Be On E.
It For Now. Short And Simple

Short And Simple Update

I Conquered My Birthday Without Any Tears. Most Of My Birthday Have Been Full Of Bad Luck. The Bad Luck This Time Was Not Having Any Body Here I Was Away From My Mom For The First Time And My Dad Was Out Of Town. But I Managed I Went Out To Eat With Jessica And Her Boyfriend It Was Very Good Then Hung Out With Some Friends. When I Turned 15 I Felt Alot Older And More Mature. But Now That Im Sixteen I Feel Just About The Same. Maybe Thats Because I Cant Drive Yet. I Will Be Taking My Road Test Tomorrow Thought I Very Excited To Finally Take It. I Really Want To Get A Job And that Will Be The First Thing I Do When I Can Drive.

This Dog!!!!!!

They Say A Dog Is A Mans Best Friend And I Do Believe So. They Cant Hurt You They Will Always Be There For You.

Charlie Is A Very Special Dog (Literally) He Seems To Be Challenge In Some Way Because He Doesn't Care When I'm Mad At Him Scream Or Yell At Him He Will Sit There And Wag His Tail Then Jump On You And Give You A Big Kiss.

He Has Made Me Laugh With His Stupidity. He Will Never Know Right From Wrong. It Is Very Stressful But He Is A Delightful Dog. He Has More Energy Then Ive Ever Know Anything To Have.

Anyways The Point To This Post If I Move In With My Mom And Can Not Come With Me. He Also Can Not Stay With My Dad. He Will Be Gone. I Don't Know What I Would Do Without Him He May Be The Cause To Of My Stay. I Cant Imagine Being Without Him Nor Do I Want To.

The Other Night I Let Him Sleep In My Bed For The First Time He Stayed In My Bed The Whole Night But Was Worse Than A Person He Had To Be On Me At All Times. I Hardly Got Any Sleep That Night But That's Okay. :)

Its For Me

My Dad Was Asking What I Don't Like About Being In Anchorage, One Of The Things I Said Was The Way We Live. I Don't Like That I'm The Only One Who Cleans, That My Dad Is Always Gone, That I'm The Only One Who Is Ever Home, Or That We Never Have Home Cooked Meals. Right After That We Made Dinner Together And He Made Jessica Clean The Kitchen. He Is Starting To Realize That I'm Serious About Going Home And He Is Trying Hard To Fix Things Around Here. He Is Taking A lot Of My Thoughts Under Consideration And It Feels Good To Be Heard For Once.
I Feel Like Being The Baby In The Family My Voice Is Never Heard Everything That Was Ever Said By Me Has Just Flew Past Everybody. I'm Trying Hard To Be Heard Now And Its Finally Starting To Work.
Back To My Dad Though. I Can Tell He Is Really Scared To Lose Me. He Has Even Told Me He Has Never Been Away From Me And He Cant Stand The Thought Of Me Going He Doesn't Know What He Is Gunna Do With Out Me. It Makes Me Feel For Him But What Am I Suppose To Do I Cant Stay Here Because Of His Needs. I Have Two Family Members Here One Is Always With Here Boyfriend And One Is Working All The Time. I Have Nobody To Talk To Or Any Friends And that Is What Is Important To Me Right Now. For The Last Year I Have Been Living This Life Almost As If I Were Surviving On My Own. I Cant Talk To People About My Issues Because I Have Nobody To Talk To, I've Noticed That I Have Become A Stronger Person By This But I Have Alot Of Pain Also. A Teenager Girl Needs To Have A Life Not Be Inside Watching TV Everyday And I Think Arkansas Will Help Me With That. I Have A Lot Of Good Friends And Family There. My Dad Is Very Needy And I Don't Know How He Is Going To Manage Once Jess Leaves When She Graduates But I'm Sure He Will. Everything That Is Happening Right Now Is For Me And It May Seem Greedy Or Selfish Or Rude But Its Time That I Quit Sucking It Up And Be Happy.
On A Happier Note My Birthday Is In 8 More Days :D I Wont Be Getting My Licence On My Birthday Or For A Couple Weeks After Due To My Dad Being Outta Town But At Least I Will Be Getting It Finally..
I Have A Short 4 Day Week Of School This Week That I Am Very Excited About Then Going Ocean Fishing With My Dad. Maybe Then I Will Finally Put Some Pictures Up On Here.
Bye For Now..