Getting Into It

I Decided To Get Up Early Today That Way I Could Fall Asleep Earlier And Not Be Tired On The First Day Of School. Its Been Horrible I've Been Sleepy All Day Long Trying To Help My Friend Pick Out Stuff For School All Last Minute Of Course.. I Was Struggling To Say Awake All Day Long.
Im Going Into The Tenth Grade, Everybody Has Been Asking Me If Im Excited And Im Every Thing But That. Im Happy That Im Not A Freshman Anymore But Im Scared To Death To Go. I Hate School. I Used To Love School I Never Wanted Summer To Be So Long And Didnt Want Weekends To Come But Now Im Counting Down Days Tell Each Weekend And Break There Is . I Do This Because Im Sorta Still New At This School And Its A Big Change To Me Ive Never Been To A School So Big, And Trust Me I've Been To Alot Of Schools. (I'll Get To That Later Though) Im A Shy Girl Im Never The First To Go Up And Talk To Somebody So As You Could Imagine It Is Hard For Me To Make Friends. I Guess I Should Really Get Over That If I Ever Want To Have A Life Any Time Soon. Im Also Nervous Because This Year My Sister Cant Always Be There With Me Between Each Passing Period And Lunch. She Is Going To Be A Senior But She Only Has Three Classes. I'm Used To Meeting Her At My Locker, Going To The Bathroom Together, Walking Each Other To Class, And Eating Lunch Together. I Guess That Is Going To Be Very Limited All Though I Bet She Is Full Of Joy About That Part.
I've Moved Alot With My Dad Works, But These Last Two Moves Have Been The Hardest. This Time My Family Was Split In Half Im Used To Being In A House Full Of People I Lived With My Mom, Dad, Brother, And Two Sisters This Move Was For Once Not Cause Of Work It Was Because Of My Parents Divorse, My Brother And Sister (Becca) Stayed There Because Of School. I Went From Arkansas To Alaska A HUGE Change. I Didnt Mind Moving To Alaska Is Was My Choice To Come And I Was Very Excited About It. About Five Months Of Living In Kenai Alaska And Loving I. I Made Tons Of Friends Very Easily Being In A Small Town Was So Fun To Me, I Learned Tons About Hockey And Was Even A Hockey Manager With My Sister. So Five Months Later We Moved Again The Seventh Time I Have Moved. Now Living In Achorage But Not For Long. I Dont Like Being In This City And Every Thing Has Been Difficult Since The Move. Visiting My Mom Back In Arkansas And Hanging Out With My Friends Every Day Of The Summer. I Even Extended My Ticket So I Could Be There Longer It All Made Me Realize How Much Happier I Was And Should Be. So I Asked My Mom To Move Back In. She Was Thrilled And Just So Excited About It. My Dad On The Other Hand Isnt He Is A Very Needy Person And I Have No Idea How He Will Manage With Out Me And Jessica Leaving In Another Year. So Now I Am Counting The Months Tell Christmas Because On Christmas Break I Get To Move Back To My Moms. They Wanted Me To Wait For Christmas Because How It Will Effect My Grades If I Miss Anymore School. Plus I Get My Liences In A Month If I Stay! Im Very Siked About That. Ive Been Waiting For My Sixteenth Birthday For A Very Long Time! And Its So Close Its All I've Been Thinking About. Sadly With My Dads Just He Wont Be Here On My Birthday. He Will Leave The Day Before And Come HOme Three Days After. Thats Going To Be Very Chanlenging Ive Seemed To Have The Worst Birthdays Ever! But What Is Done Is Done And No Reason To Pout Over It.
Well I Need To Go ... School Night :(